Thursday, January 13, 2011

frustrations...

I question this journey.... I have many unanswered questions at the moment, yet I have a peace about me that can only be from God. This is not my journey; but His. I am trying my hardest to be strong and full of hope. Suddenly my priorities have shifted... I want my energy back, I want to do so many things still. I pray for peace, I fight back tears... but I know I'm not myself. I know my patience is being tested... I know I have no choice but to be patient and I am trying not to worry... that is easier said than done... 8 years and my fears must be faced. I can no longer push this under a rug, hide this like I did something wrong. I am ready, I am strong, I will fight whatever fight I need to fight. I am humbled completely.